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Rita and The Thin Man Welcome 1940

Fiction by Lois Anne DeLong

Rita’s feet hurt. She had been patrolling the aisles since the theatre opened at ten that morning. Outside, New York City had begun celebrating the end of 1939 hours ago. But here, in this dark hall, there was no sense of anything new coming into being. And, by the time Rita re-entered the real world, the big moment would be over. 1940 would already be in motion.

Meanwhile, here in the Roxy Theatre, where the walls weep paint from its glory days before the Great Depression, the only meaning time had was how much more of the film was left to unspool. Rita guessed it had perhaps another 15 minutes to go. A different film might have helped the time pass quicker. Down the street, they were showing “Raffles,” starring David Niven as a charming jewel thief. Here it was the day’s sixth showing of “Another Thin Man,” the third installment of a film series that, in Rita’s mind at least, was wearing thin. Really, she thought, how many times can you watch Myrna Loy and William Powell make elegant chit chat?

“Hey, William, I could use a martini about now,” she said under her breath, as Powell, in the guise of detective Nick Charles, was prepping yet another drink on the screen. “Come on,” the fictional conversation continued, “It’s New Year’s Eve, for Pete’s sake. Why does everyone get to lift a glass but me?”

As she braced herself against the wall to take some stress off her aching legs, Rita found herself beginning to doze off. At one point, she barely caught herself from pitching forward onto the threadbare carpet. Like other elements of the once beautiful Roxy, the rug had seen better days. The city may have recovered from the Depression, but the Roxy reaped no such benefits. She brushed a hand across the wall of the small alcove, near the exit sign and the shedding paint fell like leaden rain. Rita was grateful for the job—shift work like this made it possible for her to continue her studies— but it certainly wasn’t the most pleasant place to spend one’s days.

As she lightly stomped her feet to reduce the tingles, she found herself questioning every decision in her young life. She let out a sigh as she acknowledged how much easier it would have been if she had accepted Allen’s earnest proposal and become a New Jersey housewife. Instead, she had chosen to continue her slog toward a degree that did not even guarantee her a job, and a life in one room of a boarding house so small she knew all the intimate details of her neighbors’ sex lives.

The back door of the theatre opened quietly and Charley, the manager, stepped in. Rita moved into the aisle to be sure she was seen. Charley hated it when the staff sat during their shifts. He must have seen her at her post, because he waved vaguely in her direction and then shut the door behind him. A lifelong bachelor, with no family to speak of, the Roxy seemed to be Charley’s whole world, and it was a world he guarded with surprising ferocity. Rita didn’t like him much, but she had to admit he was fair, and everything he asked of his staff was designed to keep the marquee lit. For all this, he had earned her grudging respect in recent days.

Rita walked back a few aisles and as she did, each step reminded how long she had kept her vigil by the exit. She contemplated heading up to the balcony now to get a head start on clean-up. But, there were dangers in the dark up there, from tripping on the stairs to being groped by the drifters who used the balcony as their own personal flophouse. Instead, she decided to sit out the last few frames of the film. Charley be damned, she thought. As she sat down, the rush of blood through her weary legs was as refreshing as one of the ice-cold bottles of Coca-Cola chilling by the snack bar.

A quick check of her watch revealed that 1940 was only seconds away. What would that year hold? And, would she still be celebrating the start of 1941 within these walls? She was too tired to contemplate the answers to such questions. Instead, she watched William, Myrna, and their surprisingly intelligent dog solve yet another mystery. As the credits began to roll, she wondered if Charley might want to have a drink when they finished closing up. There was a New Year to welcome and neither of them had anywhere else to go.


Lois Anne DeLong is a freelance writer living in Queens, New York, and an active member of the Woodside Writers literary forum. Her work has appeared in Dear Booze, Short Beasts, Bright Flash Literary Journal, The Bluebird Word, and DarkWinter Literary Journal.

Estate Sale

Fiction by Deborah Wessell

“Excuse me. Excuse me? Would you take ten for this?” Lois hoisted the tuxedo
pants and jacket before the bored, merciless eyes of the man accepting money.

“Tag says fifteen.”

He was middle-aged, as she was, but lean and weathered, with a graying ponytail
and bare feet. His till was a fishing tackle box. Behind him a Sunday morning crowd
picked over the debris of someone’s life, the husband who had worn the tuxedo and read Sky & Telescope, the wife given to macramé and saving cottage cheese containers. Lois wondered if they were dead, but of course it would be ghoulish to ask.

“I know the tag says fifteen. But it’s not in good shape, and anyway I only have
ten dollars with me, so…”

“So?”

“Never mind,” she murmured, but he cut her off.

“OK, ten.”

Lois was certain that the man knew she had always wanted a tuxedo jacket, just to
wear with jeans, and that she feared she was too old and overweight to carry it off. Well, was he such a prize, with that silly hair and the T-shirt with the rude slogan? She pulled out her wallet and something dropped from her purse: a slip of paper folded around two twenty dollar bills.

“Oh!” said Lois, appalled. “Oh, that’s right, I went to the cash machine last night.
I could, I mean, if you want fifteen…”

The man snorted. “Forget it.”

Lois drove home in mortification, and it was days before she could bring herself to try on her purchase. The pants, at least, made her laugh: clown pants, much too short and huge around the waist, with stiff black suspenders. Then the jacket, heavy on her shoulders. She slid her hands down the lapels and smoothed the skirts over her hips, sighing over the bulges. Then she frowned and explored a miniature inside front pocket. A small rough nugget met her fingertips and she drew it forth: a tiny ivory wedge, smooth-sided, red-brown at the jagged base. A baby tooth.

Lois had a rushing vision of a dark bedroom, a child’s breathing, a slanting slice of light from the hallway. Daddy, with his barrel belly and his suspenders and his satin lapels, on his way to some long-ago fancy night out, steps to the bedside and slips one hand gently under the pillow to exchange a silvery dime for this disgusting little miraculous tooth.

The man in the rude T-shirt, was he that child? Even if he wasn’t, he was a child once, and someone loved him, or didn’t love him. Lois was dizzied by the thought, not only of the man, but of everyone, herself and her own children and her friends and their children and oh Lord, everyone she’d ever met or would never meet and all of them, every individual on this entire warm busy planet, would someday be dead, and there would just be these little things, these objects once significant of love. The thought was marvelous but entirely too much, and Lois threw the tooth away.


Deborah Wessell writes the Wedding Planner mystery series under the name Deborah Donnelly. She is a former librarian, copywriter, and speechwriter. She lives in Bellingham, Washington, with her writer husband and their unruly corgis.

A Life Lived in Common

Poetry by Robert Harlow

They don’t think much about it,
I suspect, the horses, the snow.
Probably wonderstruck the first time
they stand in it, as it falls on and around them.
As long as they have something to eat,
mostly hay, unbaled, strewn, disheveled,
they are fine, it seems. Nonchalant.
At least that’s what they look like. Their pose.
And there’s always one, isn’t there,
who is off by himself, looking
to the distance he can’t get to.
Even though he’s never been there,
he wonders if there’s a way he can.
Somehow, he’ll have to convince the others,
nodding into the feed, to cover for him
by creating one of their famous diversions
as he tries to figure out how to open the gate,
because he has to live with the mistake he made
of not learning how to be a jumper
as I tried to teach him to be.
And he can’t secretly disassemble the rails
without me seeing him, catch him in the act,
putting on the “What? I wasn’t doing nothing” face.
Even though he is dark-gray, intermittently rain-smooth
when he needs to be, snow won’t help hide him,
as he thinks it will, or fill in his hoof prints
on the other side if he somehow remembers
what I tried to teach him about going over obstacles
one might encounter in this often-puzzling world.
So, he’ll have to be content,
or at least pretend to be, with his lot in life.
We have so much in common, he and I, don’t we?
He staring off into his distance.
Me staring off into mine.


Robert Harlow resides in upstate NY. He is the author of Places Near and Far (Louisiana Literature, 2018). His poems appear in Poetry Northwest, RHINO, Slipstream Magazine, and elsewhere.

Because It’s Beautiful

Poetry by Beate Sigriddaughter

She does not believe in obedience to complications. When she plays her flute, she doesn’t play because it’s hard. She plays because it’s beautiful, like singing, even if it is ridiculously easy. Explaining this to experts is a challenge. Sometimes it takes days before she can resume reality with unassuming confidence. She is old enough to follow her own rules, but often still hesitates at the door of permission without knocking, and she still has trouble finding a safe haven for her longing. Once upon a time she woke up celebrating trees outside her window or the scent of cedar after rain and sparkles at the tips of junipers. She contemplates the lord of good intentions with a trembling candle in her hand, like Psyche looked at Eros long ago. Just like a simple tune, she finds him beautiful, and bravely whispers to herself: Let him sleep. He needs his rest, trapped in his fears. Every restraint, though, makes the future harder, like incessant rain as summer fades into the dreaded shapes of insignificance. She gathers scents and music, fragments of herself. People parade in her dreams, harmless like conundrums. Sometimes she dreams of perfume and all her misery is nothing more than being reasonably well loved. She readily admits she might have liked God but never got a chance. She never steals from others, not intentionally anyway. Now she must simply learn to master not stealing from herself.


Beate Sigriddaughter, www.sigriddaughter.net, lives in Silver City, New Mexico (Land of Enchantment), where she was poet laureate from 2017 to 2019. Her poetry and short prose are widely published in literary magazines. Recent book publications include a poetry collection, Wild Flowers, and short story collection, Dona Nobis Pacem.

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