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First of December

Poetry by Suzy Harris

Every wet leaf underfoot
gives a little sigh. Sounds like
squish squish. And every
almost bare branch bends down
in supplication. December
begins quietly, not yet wanting
to slam the door on the old year.

We have four more weeks
to finish the unfinished,
care for the untended,
seek the sublime. Each day
unfolds like the first paragraph
of a new story. We don’t know
how it ends.


Suzy Harris lives in Portland, Oregon. Her poems have appeared in Clackamas Literary Review, Willawaw Journal, and Wild Greens, among other journals and anthologies. Her chapbook Listening in the Dark, about hearing loss and learning to hear again with cochlear implants, was published by The Poetry Box in February 2023.

This April

Poetry by Michael Carrino

Time can be a gentle quiz a dissonant tin drum
          Songbirds are silent

It continues to rain    Every village road is now
          a branch of the river

The past is a vintage red wine
          in some dark cellar

The future might only be
          black grapes

wasting on a vine as another
          ash-stained cloud

creates an illusion    Beyond
          the slate gray lake

every mountain must be burning


Michael Carrino was co-founder and poetry editor of SUNY Plattsburgh’s literary journal, Saranac Review. He has had nine books of poetry published, most recently, In No Hurry (Kelsay Books, 2021) and Natural Light (Kelsay Books, 2023), as well as individual poems in numerous journals and reviews.

Don’t Miss the Boat

Nonfiction by Gloria Lauris

What had started out as a lovely, lazy excursion soon turned into a nightmare.

“The boat’s gonna leave–without us! But where is it?” I cried to my son Alex, who had scouted out ahead.

“There!” he shouted, pointing to our cruiser at port in the distance. My heart sank. No way we would make it in time before the 4 pm set-sail time. It was 3:30, and we were far away and up a hill. We had no transportation and didn’t speak the local language.

I mentally reviewed how we arrived in this predicament. Our luxury liner had moored in the Baltic Sea’s cyan calm waters at Tallinn, and we had earlier strolled ashore. My main purpose here was to buy a wood icon dating back to the 18th century from an Estonian shop, located in the city’s Old Town Square. Given my art history training, I was excited to pursue these panels which had been obtained from the hallowed walls of old Eastern European churches, and even more keen to secure a piece.

Alex and I wandered leisurely through the quaint, walled seaside town. We admired the time-worn architecture of the well-preserved medieval city, peering into windows of old museums and galleries, and picking our way along the meandering cobblestone walkways.

Stopping at the well-known antique store, I spent over an hour agonizing over the many religious items, focusing on the more affordable ones. I finally settled on a work featuring ‘Archangel Michael with St. Florus and St. Laurus’ which especially appealed to me due to the similarity to my last name. The mysterious painted eyes of the archangel’s face looked as though they held secrets or at least stories from the icon’s time on church walls.

Clutching my new prized possession, I joined my impatient son waiting for me outside the shop and we walked along the city’s streets within the marketplace, examining the fresh produce, assorted merchandise, and colourful cotton clothing.

The intoxicating and exotic smells from the food vendors mingled with the fragrant air of the lazy summer afternoon. We seemed to merge into the historic, serene landscape, caught up and lost in a timeless trance—in a dance of sorts—of life in that ancient town which was foreign yet somehow familiar. Time stood still for awhile.

Eventually rousing from the lull of relaxation and daydream, we realized that the sun was no longer overhead and it was time to return. In fact, it was very much past time to go. We also then realized that we weren’t sure exactly where we were or how to navigate our way back.

Panic set in.

Despite the day’s warmth, I felt a chill as the potential seriousness of the situation sunk in. My hands formed sweaty beads and breaths started coming faster through my parched throat.

It would be a tight race to get to the vessel in time, assuming we were going the right way at all.

Our once casual pace now quickened in an increasingly desperate effort to get back. If only we could find which road to take! This one? Or That? Signage was not helpful since we couldn’t read the words.

In asking several vendors how to find our way back to the seaport, we used charade-like gestures to communicate as their English was poor and our Estonian was non-existent. We later learned we were pointed in the wrong direction and went even further afield. We tried unsuccessfully to find a taxi.

The outline of the massive ship could be seen far away in the harbor, blasting out its loud and final no-nonsense warning signals. It was calling for us, its wayward passengers, one last time.

We were stranded and miserable.

Then, what seemed like a miracle happened.

Unexpectedly we found the right road back towards the cruise liner. Did Archangel Michael himself hear, through our icon, our feverish muttered prayers for literal guidance, and compassionately and invisibly intercede?

Separated from the ship by a steep hill, we abandoned any pretence of decorum, desperately throwing ourselves down the grassy knoll, traversing rocks, ignoring blisters on our feet, and trying not to stumble or fall. Cutting away from the pathway, we scrambled, taking the most direct way back we could.

The ship would leave shortly for Russia. Not reaching the vessel meant we would have to regroup three days later somewhere else entirely once it exited Soviet waters. Missing the evening sail-off was unthinkable, not even an option as there was no Plan B. We pushed ourselves harder, hearts thumping in our chests, and gasping for air as we ran.

My memory of the rest is a blur, and I don’t know to this day how we did it, as it seemed impossible to get there in time. Did we fly? Somehow, we found the strength to stagger, exhausted, to our floating hotel, avoiding the stern looks from the boarding crew about to hoist the loading plank. I looked at my watch: 3:58!

I don’t think my son and I were ever more grateful to be on board a boat. The food tasted amazing, the shower heavenly, and my small bunk bed extremely welcoming to my aching body and feet. My precious icon stowed in my luggage, to be unearthed only upon our return home.

No one wants to miss the boat, whether figuratively or literally. My son and I occasionally refer to that fateful day and shake our heads with disbelief remembering how close we came to almost doing so. It will be a story Alex will tell his kids one day: the time when their dad and grandma almost didn’t make it.

When I hung that special item on my wall at home, I could have sworn the quiet and unassuming painted Archangel Michael winked at me.

I guess our Baltic adventure is just one more story added to his silent, secret mysteries.


Gloria Lauris is a writer in Ottawa, Ontario, Canada. She has degrees in sociology and art history and is a retired government analyst. Inspired by her education, experiences, and observations she writes nonfiction about animal welfare, travel, gardening, and food, as well as fictional children’s animal stories with a colleague.

The Universe on Rewind

Poetry by E.J. Mathews

There, at the end of everything
bodies birth bullets and ghosts
grow flesh. Liquid steel freezes
into stone and trees sink into soil.
Planets fling themselves thin
until they are dust and stars
suck light through fission.
Gold races towards a black hole
to become heat and light.
All knowledge learned will be forgotten.
Rusty wrecks repair themselves to
mint condition floating upward
through the dark water into the light
kissing the air.


E. J. Mathews has an MFA in Creative Writing from Hamline University. He is from International Falls, Minnesota, and has previously published pieces in Mistake House, rock, paper, scissors, and TeenInk Magazine.

A Special Place

Fiction by Laurel DiGangi

Judith and Marlon sat on their veranda, sipping Château Lafite Rothschild and nibbling chunks of a divine French brie. The setting sun painted the clouds above and ocean below in iridescent strokes of color. But they didn’t know what specific ocean they viewed, nor could they describe the colors since they didn’t exist on the spectrum.

A year earlier, Pastor Ned had told Judith, Marlon, and the rest of his congregation that there was a special place in heaven for those who put their total faith in the Lord. Believers, true believers, did not need masks, vaccines, seat belts, safety razors, smoke alarms, carbon monoxide detectors, or non-slip bathmats.

Now, here they were, the both of them.

A trio of humpback whales breached in the distance.

“Magnificent creatures!” announced Marlon.

“Yup,” said Judith, but they only reminded her of their three grandchildren. She tried not to miss them because she felt guilty when she did, as if wishing for their early demise. 

Suddenly Marlon sprung from his lounge chair. “I think I’ll go for a run,” he said.

“Have fun,” said Judith, but she was thinking, “Don’t come back.”  If it weren’t for Marlon, she could be jangling her hip scarf at belly dance lessons or helping her grandkids look for seashells and hermit crabs on a real, living beach. Instead she’d spent her last semi-conscious days traumatizing them, their parents, and her friends—including a special friend who couldn’t visit her in intensive care because their friendship was, well, secret.

Judith felt achingly lonely. Sensing this, her lifetime’s accumulation of dogs, five mutts, a dachshund and a Lab, ran out the back door to join her. A plate of doggie treats and chocolate chip macadamia nut cookies appeared. The dogs sat in a row on their haunches and waved their forepaws in the air like little beggars. They were never this well-behaved when alive, but rowdy or polite, they were now one of her few joys.  

She tossed treats at the dogs. She ate the cookies. And no matter how many she ate, more would appear. She tried a dog treat, just for fun. It tasted like ambrosia.

Judith leaned back and cracked open her book, a tell-all memoir written by her favorite actor after his death. The dachshund jumped on her lap, waves churned in the distance, and by page 12, she had fallen into a light slumber.

When she awoke, Marlon was hovering above her, scowling.

“The people down the shore have a gazebo,” he said. “And a fire pit, hot tub, and swimming pool.”

“Cool,” said Judith. “Maybe they’ll invite us over.”

“No. Not cool. We deserve everything they have, plus maybe a fifty-foot catamaran and our own private pier!”

“What makes you think we deserve anything?”

“We were specifically told, a special place in heaven!” Judith had no words. All she could do was glare at her husband. She glared for a long, long time, as time was now mockingly irrelevant.


Laurel DiGangi’s writing has been published in The Chicago Reader, Denver Quarterly, Fourth Genre, Asylum, Atlanta Quarterly, Cottonwood, Two Hawks Quarterly, and Under the Gum Tree, among others. A Chicago-born, former graphic designer and illustrator, she now teaches and is coordinator of tutoring services at Woodbury University in Burbank, California.

Never Too Late

Nonfiction by Nick Wynne

I had no experience with fatherhood, nor did I have the kind of experience with my father that would have helped me to be a better one. My father was an alcoholic, and I and all my siblings bore the brunt of that. He could be kind, but he could also be harsh and emotionally abusive. Despite his shortcomings, he and my mother made sure that we grew up with strong moral values and work ethic. Although we went through periods of severe economic stress as a family, they sacrificed to ensure that we were fed, clothed, and loved. Tragically, as a family we didn’t articulate our love for each other until after his death. It was there, but we didn’t express it.

I must confess I never really understood my father until I was in my mid-30s. Only then did I understand that he was a brilliant man who could have been anything he wanted to with an education but was forced to leave school in the third grade and work to support his mother and family. We, his own family, were five in number, and he worked hard to support us despite knowing that every job he took involved hard labor and minimum wages. Nevertheless, he persisted. It is no wonder that he took to drink to relieve his frustrations at not being able to provide more. Hard to understand, but understandable.

I do know that I never told my father I loved him until he was on his death bed. My brother Joe and I were in his room where he was in a coma. Joe left for some reason, and I was there alone with him. He briefly opened his eyes and looked at me. I felt compelled to tell him face-to-face, “I never told you this, you old sonofabitch, but I love you.” He blinked his eyes, smiled a little smile, closed his eyes, and died.


Nick Wynne is a retired educator and published author. He is a native of McRae, Georgia but lives in Rockledge, Florida. His latest book is Cousin Bob: The World War II Experiences of Robert Morris Warren, DSC. His website is www.nickwynnebooks.com.

Six Months After Father’s Leave-Taking

Poetry by Nancy Kay Peterson

There is no word
for the weight of winter,
no number for the centuries
that press upon bone.

Alone in my father’s meadow,
drifted with moon-lit snow,
I count the Indian burial mounds
that lie at forest’s edge.

At 30 below,
everything is clarity,
the line of black trunk,
the curve of white land.

Everything is soundless
except my whispered leave-taking.
I make no promise
to come again.


Nancy Kay Peterson’s poetry has appeared in Dash Literary Journal, HerWords, Last Stanza Poetry Journal, RavensPerch, Steam Ticket, and Tipton Poetry Journal. From 2004-2009, she co-published Main Channel Voices: A Dam Fine Literary Magazine. She has two poetry chapbooks, Belated Remembrance (2010) and Selling the Family (2021). Visit www.nancykaypeterson.com.

Sawdust

Fiction by Terri Mullholland

The wooden owl her dad carved and painted for her when she was a child still sits on the fence. The once bright colours now so faded that from a distance, and without her glasses, it looks as if it might fly away at any moment.

Her dad was always making something from wood, things for around the house, coasters, a spice rack, a chess set. He even made her a Noah’s ark, complete with two of every imaginable animal. Every weekend, he’d be there in the shed, whittling away, carving, shaping, chiselling, sanding, bringing each piece of wood to life.

The door would be ajar, and she’d creep in, sit on the floor and watch him. 

He was a quiet man, never one to chat or whistle or hum while he worked, and not one for small talk. But during those hours in the workroom, watching his hands craft and sculpt, she felt close to her dad. He spoke to her through those silences they inhabited together.  

She’d sit at his feet and play with the wood shavings that lined the floor, beautiful paper-thin coils of wood. If she found a perfect spiral that seemed to go on forever, she’d put it in her pocket, take it up to her room to wonder at alone. She’d carry pieces in the pocket of her school cardigan, a talisman against the bullies.

Her fingers would worry the coil away to nothing. Then she’d have to go back to the shed for a new piece.

He stopped making things from wood long ago. When his hands became stiff and clumsy, when he had too many accidents, and her mother said enough

Two young men came to dismantle the shed; his tools were packed up and sold. She was glad he never lived to see it all go. 

She wishes she could still go back for one last perfect spiral, one last lucky charm.

Now, years later, every pocket is full only of sawdust.


Terri Mullholland (she/her) is a writer and researcher living in London, UK. Her flash fiction has appeared in Litro, Flash Fiction Magazine, Every Day Fiction, Toasted Cheese, Full House, Severine, Tether’s End, The Liminal Review, and Analogies & Allegories Literary Magazine. When she is not writing she can be found curled up with a good book and a cat.

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