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Learning to Drive

13 May 2026 / Editor

Nonfiction by Dr. Nancy J Rennert

Daddy picked me up outside my cousin’s apartment building in New York City for the drive home to Long Island. Our car crawled in the rush-hour traffic.

As darkness approached, Daddy weaved back and forth over the line separating the driving lanes, his neck craned toward the windshield, eyes darting back and forth. His left foot came off the recently installed left gas pedal as he depressed the brake, then returned to the gas pedal. His right artificial leg, no longer attached to his body, was splayed on the front seat between us.

“I can’t see the lines…”, he said, his shoulders sagging. His advancing diabetes was slowly eroding his eyesight.

“I’m pulling over. You drive.”

At seventeen, I’d passed the written test to get my learner’s permit. I could stop at a stop sign, make a right turn and drive slowly on local streets with my instructor in the car. I wasn’t legally allowed to drive in New York City with my learner’s permit.

“But, Daddy, I can’t drive legally without…” I began.

Daddy interrupted by wrenching the steering wheel to the right. The car careened off the highway and then skidded to a stop, on the shoulder.

I tried to breathe, my heart’s lub dubs pounding against my chest. Usually, I accepted a challenge, but this was so risky. I knew we could get hurt, even die. I wanted to run away fast and disappear. But there was nowhere to go.

“You have to drive. I’ll talk you through it.” Daddy said. I heaved myself out of the front seat and watched as Daddy slid his right stump into the artificial leg. I didn’t want to drive but he was already out of the driver’s seat. He leaned on the car door with all his weight, stood and then hobbled around the front hood, holding on until he reached the passenger side door. I held him under his arm so he could ease down into the passenger seat.

Daddy had diabetes for as long as I can remember. About five years before the drive, he started to gradually lose his eyesight. Six months before the drive, when an infection took his right leg below the knee, my mother, my three brothers, and I visited him in the rehabilitation hospital and it was the first time I saw him cry.

After a few months of physical therapy, he walked with the artificial leg, and then he wanted to drive. A gas pedal was installed to the left of the brake in his car, which he operated with his remaining foot. The right pedal still worked in case someone else needed to drive his car.

The two gas pedals scared me. I’d never driven on a highway, let alone in a car with two gas pedals. Still, I moved the seat forward, adjusted the side and rearview mirrors and checked the dashboard, just like in driver’s ed class. Engine off, I moved my right foot from the right accelerator to the brake for practice. I kept my left foot as far away from the extra gas pedal as I could.

“Start the engine, and put on the left turn signal,” Daddy said.

Can he hear my heart pounding against my chest?

“Look for an opening, then give it some gas and get into the right lane. Keep your eye on the white line and follow it.” Hands trembling, I put the left turn signal on, but there was no opening to merge.

“I’ll tell you when… I’ll say NOW and then you turn the steering wheel to the left slightly and push on the gas pedal. You can do it – you have to – ease your way in.”

I gripped the steering wheel; my body hunched, and my jaws clenched.

“NOW” he said. I pressed on the accelerator and edged the car into traffic.

“Damn yes!” Daddy said.

On the drive, Daddy repeated “You can do it” so many times, I began to believe it. A shot of adrenaline surged through my body, recharging me. I focused intensely on the road, concentrating on following the lane lines, as honking cars whooshed past us.

“Just drive slow if you want. Who cares if they honk at you. Screw ’em,” Daddy advised. The next passerby gave me the finger. Same to you buddy! Get out of my way, I thought.

I’m driving!

When we neared home, the traffic let up, and Daddy began to tell jokes, which I had heard before, but they still made me smile. The one about his friend who was pleased with his new hearing aid. Dad asked, “What kind is it?” and the friend replied, “about 11:30.” Daddy also had some great one liners! If someone repeated a story, he would say “This is where I came in.” – and that was that. Conversation over. Humor was his way of coping, his shield against adversity.

About twenty minutes later, I parked the car in our driveway and stumbled out of the driver’s seat. Exhausted and triumphant. We had made it home. “I knew you could do it”, Daddy said softly, with tears in his eyes.

We shared a hug in the car. We weren’t very close, but this drive had brought us together. As we entered the house, Mom was upstairs, and my brothers were watching TV and finishing homework. I went straight to my room, plopped on my bed and thought about my fear, my accomplishment and my newfound power.

I’d been terrified of driving, but Daddy pushed me to do it. He believed in me and helped me believe in myself. Somehow, I found my strength.

A few weeks later, Daddy went to the eye doctor hoping he could have more laser treatments to improve his vision, but the doctor told him he was legally blind.

He hired a driver that day.

I passed my driving test the next month. From then on, I only drove my mother’s car.

Dr. Nancy J Rennert is a deaf physician, Chief Endocrinologist at Norwalk Hospital, CT. She is exploring creative nonfiction writing focusing on medicine, disability, family and the intersection of all three domains. Prior publications in Cool Beans Lit and Pulse–Voices from the Heart of Medicine.

Faded Picks and Broken Strings for Eric

10 May 2026 / Editor

Poetry by James Fleet Underwood

My gait aches, Kwan says I’m stooping,
and the nose I broke brawling with your cousin
wheezes in the winter, but more times than not
I’m staring at my toes and laughing
as if I just found the man I was looking for
standing sunburned in the grass.

You chat easy with us here, old friend,
our table cleared of plate and cloth,
smoking Drum and pushing coffee round a saucer
with your thumb, that waggish smile
tucked in several years of beard, and if I
don’t recognize the manifestation of your intent,
I know it’s love you always bring me.

We’re taking longer walks these days,
Kwan and I, going back to Strummer’s Hollow,
to that shed where you holed up with your Gibson,
where you wrote that tune of gals and gin,
a raunchy 12 bar riffed off with a grin,
and we kick up faded picks & broken strings – I
think she found that charm of yours,
the one you swore the barmaid stole in Reno.

Your spirit’s strong and flies here with October,
a stormy Michigan wet wood thing, though I
know you bang your can amongst the living,
and I wake those nights, hear a strumming,
get honey from the bed, and we walk the trails
swinging lanterns, asking wisdom from the bears.

James Fleet Underwood writes poems rooted in place, season, and daily life. His work explores quiet relationships with the natural world and the small rituals that shape human presence within it. Find him on X: @jamesfleetpoems and Substack: jamesfleetpoems.substack.com

Like Neighborhood Kids

7 May 2026 / Editor

Poetry by Jeffrey Sommer

Behind the house an Italian Cypress shares the yard
With a Japanese maple and a Mexican Palm

Like neighborhood kids they grew up together,
Drinking the same water, fed by the same sun

The evergreen Cypress guards the fence
Star-shaped leaves decorate the Maple tree
Palm fans dance in the wind

In their glory, in their permanence
They bring joy to the morning
Calm to the evening

In their blessed co-existence
They bring hope to our own

Jeffrey Sommer enjoys writing poetry on social issues as well as relationships between people and the environment.

We Sat You at the Water’s Edge

4 May 2026 / Editor

Nonfiction by Aldo Giovannitti

Bruno does his business by the bench by the parish, then he pulls. This is station two of our morning circuit. The road climbs and then levels, and you trudge along, as we crawl arm in arm, the leash in my other hand. Going back, you murmur, I would try not to escape all the time from myself. Then you disengage, and let your eyes be carried by the asphalt flowing below us.

You sit on the couch, hands on your knees, your robes hung on whatever is left of you. I notice your hump for the first time, then I look at my watch. Still one hour to the next round of pills; after that there’s lunch. She bends to lay a towel on your chest, so we won’t need to clean your shirt when you’ll wake up. She knows that in the wait you’ll let your eyelids go, bring your lips apart, and abandon your head to its weight.

Your attention span has contracted to a handful of seconds, and we need to pull words out of you quick before they are gone, before they drag with them your blurred intentions. Have I run away from here searching for what was closest to you? You made it, you said seventeen years ago standing on this very rug, holding my visa in both hands, staring at my portrait superimposed on the filigreed page.

Now you can speak only a tenth of what you used to, but each word is made of rock; the unessential has fled you. I’ve never paid as much attention to what you say as I do now—mumble, in truth—and the more I listen, the more I see you too had an entire life of your own. You too have wandered the lands, swum the seas, spun through the clouds I believed were mine alone. Your world, infinite as mine; I have finally surrendered not to comprehend it.

After dinner comes the fourth and last round. You lay the pills on the tablecloth, lining them up as you did with most things in your life. This is a ritual, and we follow its steps with devotion. You unscrew the plastic bottle, tilt it together with your chest, and pour the water onto the tablecloth, beside the glass, for the time it would have taken to fill it. We let you do that without intervening, watching the water spread on the double-folded cotton, because that is the least respect we can pay. And when you set the bottle aside you find out the glass is empty. You jerk back. Fooled again. Then we fill the glass for you.

We’ve spent the last day of this rare visit, before I fly away, at the beach house you both returned to for the past fifty-two years. A silent drive got us here. And by now an entire day has passed, and Bruno has run along the water’s edge to exhaustion. We sat you on a chair in the sand, but you didn’t like the wind and turned your gaze away from the sea.

The sun has set, and I walk past your bedroom heading to mine. I see you sleep in a fetal position, hiding into the wall, holding onto the orthopedic pillow she has bought to you both. I didn’t know you slept this way now, and that she let your bedside lamp burn through the night.

The lamp is recycled from my childhood; it diffuses a dim red light. And the light fills your heart more than it fills the room, while you dream of a decades old, Italian summer.

Aldo Giovannitti writes about shifting perception, moral ambiguity, and transformation. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in Open Journal of Arts & Letters, The Bookends Review, and Corvus Review, alongside essays in The Diplomat and South China Morning Post. He is a member of The Poetry Society and PEN America and is based in London.

Puddle

1 May 2026 / Editor

Poetry by Haily Gagliardo

A puddle lies still
stale from a morning’s rain
Once crisp with crystal hues
now brown and dull
giving way to dirt

Only the day before
she was one with silent waves
taken suddenly
through the Sun’s blazing heat
To become one with gentle mist
fluffy and white

Until a darkness overcame her
Thundering light flashed
as drops of water fell
like stone to the earth

Now she lies in wait
for the day
to once again
become one with the heavens

Haily Gagliardo is freelance writer and singer, majoring in commercial music at Palm Beach Atlantic University. Growing up in a mixed family, with her mom Jamaican Indian and her dad Italian, she developed a deep appreciation for different views on a familiar subject, which she enjoys expressing through her art.

This morning

28 April 2026 / Editor

Poetry by Elizabeth L. Merrick

I wake up early for no reason,
sit down to breakfast
just as one moment it’s dark,
the next it’s not.

Orange rays land on the pine table,
catching the round loaf,
lighting up its fresh crust.

A small crockery pot of strawberry jam
is bathed in apricot.

The polished bread knife reflects
celestial sparks.

Silently I give thanks for this light
from unimaginably far away,
this bread provided by unknown hands,
this dawning moment.

Elizabeth L. Merrick’s poems have appeared in journals including Gramercy Review, Stone Poetry Quarterly, Rue Scribe, and Muddy River Poetry Review. She has also authored scientific research publications and a guidebook on Boston’s historic house museums. She lives in Somerville, Massachusetts. Read more at ElizabethLMerrickPoetry.com

Trails and Tributes

25 April 2026 / Editor

Fiction by Mattea Fitch

The Seminole-Wekiva Trail is connected to my neighborhood rather inconveniently. To get to the shade of its oaks, it takes a mile-long trek through bare Florida sun, reflecting off fresh white asphalt. It’s mostly uphill. Along such a noisy road that my mother always yells after me, “No headphones! Be aware of your surroundings!” She’s not watching, but I still obey. All I have is the sweat running down my back and the irregular pattern of cars whipping by at fifteen miles over the speed limit.

Needless to say, when I bike on this trail, it is no trivial matter. It means I have too many thoughts to process, and some of them need to dissipate through a great deal of exhaustion.

After a few miles under shifting shadows and pockets of golden light, my legs begin to burn. I pull my bike over and sit at a dark green bench. A bit rusty, but familiar.

There is an artist who lives right on the trail. A music fanatic, evidently, because all his fences are painted with tributes to the greats. Amy Winehouse, John Lennon, Kurt Cobain… lots of other faces I’m too young to know.

What must you do for some dedicated suburban artist to paint you on his fence? For people to recognize that painting? What must you do for your name to be in the morning news when you die?

A hunched-over old man walks his bike up to my bench as I rest my chin on my water bottle in thought. He throws his arm to the space next to me. “Anyone sitting here?”

“I… no, sir,” I reply.

He sits and lets out one of those impressive sighs that only comes from old people. He wipes his sweat, takes a huge gulp from his disposable water bottle.

“Ah,” he says, looking from my face to the fence. “The Wall of Dead People. Cheery, isn’t it? Just what I wanna see on my afternoon adventure.”

I laugh humorlessly. “Makes you think.”

“About what?”

I suddenly get embarrassed. Here I am, sitting on a public bench and contemplating death as strangers rush by. A bit dark. “I don’t know. But this can’t all last forever. What’s the measurement? When I die, how will I know I didn’t waste all my time?”

“What, kid, you’ve got dying on your agenda today?”

“No.”

“But you’re thinking about it.”

“Yes,” I say far too quickly. “Well… not thinking about doing it. Not like that. But just… thinking. About what it means.”

“Hmmph.” The old man reclines, spreading his arm over the back of the bench. “That’s something that goes away over time. Not for some people, I guess, but it did for me.”

“How?”

He chuckles and slaps his bicycle seat as if it’s the shoulder of an old friend. “I get out. I look up instead of down. I move instead of hiding away. I talk to strangers on benches. Those are things anyone’ll tell you. Things that can help. But there are some things that happen by accident.”

I’m only partially paying attention, as the breeze cools my sweaty face. It’s always at this spot, after a couple of miles, where I would stop as a child. I swung my legs while my dad pulled a huge water bottle out from his backpack, giving me some to share. Or I would sometimes try to draw the huge tree in front of me—the roots are so thick, they push the asphalt up into little mountains.

Funny, how memories can overlap in a single location. One point in space overflows with ideas, epiphanies, regrets, starting points.

“Sometimes,” the old man continues, “God gives you people that stick to you, like ivy on a dead, rotten tree. And you think, maybe, that the ivy is so full of life and far too beautiful to be sticking to that sickly thing. But it stays. It’s unfair, but it does.

“And that might be what’s stopping you from… well, you know, doing it instead of thinking about it.” He jabs a finger into my shoulder. “You’ve got some people holding you back. Let them.”

He takes another long swig from his crackly water bottle. At seventy years old, he doesn’t have much in the way of wrinkles. Only crow’s feet and a bit around the mouth from smiling.

As the moments stretch on, I forget he’s even there. The flaky, neon petals of the crape myrtle inch along the pavement. Skinny bicycles cut thin lines through the air while the normal ones push on. Squirrels hug to branches far too thin, causing acorns and leaves to flutter down.

The Wall of Dead People is hardly something to look at, really. That is, compared to the life that surrounds it.

Mattea Fitch is a freelance fiction writer based in West Palm Beach, Florida. She grew up in Orlando, Florida. Along with her passion for creative writing, she works as a peer mentor who helps fellow students discover their unique style.

Ghost crew

22 April 2026 / Editor

Poetry by Christopher Laird Dornin

My late father and brother
watch me sail alone
with my eyes closed in light

wind on a burning afternoon.
Ephemeral zephyrs
and ghostly shifts of air

fall and come and rise.
I feel their pulse in the tug
of the tiller, the angle of heel,

the pull of the mainsheet and the gurgle
of my bow and stern waves.
My father’s cemetery is missing

its ancient gates and stones.
He kept its address a secret
the time we sailed the Chesapeake

among the traveling molecules
of my brother, lost at sea
a long way from there.

Christopher Laird Dornin has won a NH Arts Council fellowship and placed runner-up in the Swan Scythe Press chapbook contest, semi-finalist in the Finishing Line Press book contest and semi-finalist in the Wolfson Press chapbook contest. His verse has appeared in The Lake, Oberon, Blue Unicorn, Nimrod and others.

Another Run

19 April 2026 / Editor

Nonfiction by Laura Waldrop

I follow a dragonfly for a bit, running down the gravel path. Two days ago, I ran eight miles. It had been a while since I ran that far, and I felt the most okay I’ve felt in . . . a while. I came home filled with—let’s call it—God’s love, but it drained out of me at an impressive rate. Because there waiting for me were all the problems I want to run away from. Mounds of sticky tissue, soiled by a cold I can’t shake, line the garbage bin; my eyeballs are leaking gaskets my handyman husband doesn’t know how to fix; my every orifice oozes. It occurs to me that I last trained for a marathon 13 years ago, during the worst depression of my life. Today I think, maybe, during this season of life, I will, again, only feel okay while my legs are churning.

A copper-bellied robin glides past a deciduous tree, leaves just beginning to rust. A swoosh of pure white cloud is smeared across a periwinkle sky to the east. To the west, storm clouds, steel gray, gather over the tabletop mountains. A breeze brushes the skin of my arm, now wet with sweat, and it feels so sweet, so sweet that I marvel, for a moment, at the brilliance of evolution, how we—homo sapiens—lost the hair covering most of our body so that we could stay cool enough to run long distances. Tall wild grass—smooth brome—sways gently; it’s flexible, bending with the weather instead of toppling over.

I spent the morning, before lacing up my running shoes, reading When Things Fall Apart by the Buddhist nun Pema Chödrön, because everything is broken. Everything is shattered into pieces that can’t be glued back together. But right now, in the present moment, I am running. I experience groundlessness within every stride, a fraction of a second when my entire body floats in midair. Within every stride, I fall and find there is still earth beneath my feet. I am breathing. I’m sucking in the wind and funneling it into my legs. My heart beats. I can feel it thundering, rapid yet steady, a mighty rhythm propelling me forward. Audra McDonald sings, through my headphones, “I Think It’s Going to Rain Today,” a song about loneliness and human kindness in turn. I don’t know what is waiting for me at home, but in the nowest part of right now, I feel okay.

Laura Waldrop is a recovering engineer, yoga therapist and neurodivergent writer, with prose published in Hippocampus, MoonPark Review and NeuroKind. In her free time, Laura enjoys moving her body in nature, playing the piano/cello, and—true to her roots—building spreadsheets. You can find her at www.waldroplaura.com.

Ivory and Enamel

16 April 2026 / Editor

Poetry by Lydia Kuerth

My mother revives ivory:
milking songs from ebony keys
stroked in 88 stripes
each finger sculpts valleys
dipping,
rippling
high as hills
a fugitive melody,
a forgotten fugue

Windows shudder;
A- thunder
sunders a daughter’s closed door,
unlocking enamel
behind closed lips

Lydia Kuerth is a freelance writer from South Florida, where she edits the Living Waters Review and serves as a peer mentor at her university’s Writing Central. As a lover of reptiles, rainy days, and role-playing games, when not burrowing into books, she enjoys hiking and observing small creatures.